she doesn't know...!

Her mind is covered with painful dreams..
She is not confident as she seems..
She looks at night and wonders why..?
There is some fear,she can't deny..!
Disgust bubble and boil in her veins..
Tries to be cool but can't remain..
Fed up with life
Still she strifes..
Thinking may be someday she'll depart from pain
Nothing to lose..even less to gain
Depressed she is..
But what she wants,she won't let go..
She has no chance left..but she doesn't know..!

YAADEIN...

Holle se chupke se aati hain yaadein..
Ateet me hume kheench le jaati hain yaadein..
Koshish to ke the bhoolne ke aapko..
Par har koshish ko nakaam kar jaate hain yaadein..

Tez hawa ka jhonka bankar aati hain yaadein..
Is shaant zindagi me hulchul le aati hain yaadein..
Fir dheere se humara haath thaam kar..
Khwabon ke duniya me le jaati hain yaadein..

Kya maksad hai inka, kyu aati hain yaadein..
Beete hue baatein, dohraate hain yaadein..
Ab peeche reh gaya hai sab..
Aur chal pade hain hum..
Ab to yaadein he yaadein hain..yaadein he yaadein..
Bas yaad aati hain baatein.....yaad aati hain yaadein......

Heart filled with a new emotion.."REGRET".

Slamming the door loudly behind her..she falls on her knees ,begging her heart to stop aching.She knows tat its the time to let it go...she deserves so much better than what he gave.Still she is not able to forget.Actually her heart never permits her to do so. His voice still give her butterflies,even more than before.She remembers ...when they fell in love with each other.May be she took him for granted.Always focusing on the past,not taking the things the way she should have.She feels a new emotion ...REGRET!!!!!!
She'll kiss his picture and bid it goodnight before tucking it underneath her pillow - wrapped up in a faded black aeropostale hoodie.She inhales deep enough,the smell from that hoodie fills her senses with furtive happiness....All his favorite songs are in her play list,playing all through the night. Some make her smile while some bring tears.What she misses the most and what hurts her the most is his voice that she could listen even when he remained silent..The voice that melted her heart....
Now that voice is heard in her dreams..she misses their talks,those special moments,the blushing smile that came on his face at the mention of her name or whenever he looked at her.
Hope,love,despair are the only emotions that shine in young girl's eyes.They both were once friends in love,unbreakable,inseparable...Just 2 innocent kids so deep in love. Even in the crowd they had eyes on each other.So beautiful days they were.But now things are not the same.
That young girl cries tonight.Right after kissing his years old picture, she decides to listen to an old voice mail and then silently goes to sleep...........

The one i met in the depth of my heart..!

I sat at my window during night,
i peeped out and saw stars shining bright.
when i profoundly looked at them,
i saw there a star..solitary and dim!
Gazing that star..i started thinking,
why isn't that star.....shining n blinking.
why is that star so alone..and sad,
myriad questions in my mind i had.
contemplating that star....
in the depth of my heart....
i met someone melancholy n alone,
i went a bit nearer...i heard a moan.
the person there was weeping,
didn't get what was that soul seeking.
the star i saw came in my mind,
i thought this prsn is of same kind.
away from the shining world...
both of them gloomy and solitary....
there might be some desperation..
to them nothing seemed merry..
i got a little idea about that person,
but i didn't see that face.
wanted to know who is there,
i wanted to end up the chase.
so i went closer and closer.....
that face..
i was able to see.....
i was still,i ws shocked..
it ws no one else..it ws me!

Hiding Tears...

i said...i am hurt
you nevr asked why..?
u saw me crying..
but you jus passed by..!
i don't understand
why your love makes me feel dis way
whenever i hear your voice
to hide my tears..i walk away.
you call my name,
i slowly retreat..
you walk towards me...
my heart starts to beat...
faster...and faster..
wid each step you take,
my pain grows larger...
because i knw...
things will never be d same again....!

The Lost Beauty...

glancing at tear..a glisten in eyes,
to where ocean embraces the infinite skies..
n thinking if love can reach far to sunset's line,
will true hearts ever find happiness divine..

promises often seem like butterflies,
they fly away and gradually die..
with a promise to each other they wait,
will those two hearts ever meet by fate?

masking their agony with smile and love,
searching for lost beauty blessed from above.
at times tears out of pain will fall ,
but those two hearts will overcome all...

facing the hardships n waiting for the day,
when they'll find something good on way.
many weird things going on in mind,
the lost beauty..will true hearts ever find??

though heart is shattered and soul is weak
but for passion's sake they will seek.
to complete love's quest despite of all odds
true hearts will finally be entwined by God!

Simply wrong...!

wait..i cannot find words...
afraid...sad...numb..
does anybody understand?
does anybody care..?
old storyteller always lied..
"happily ever after"...
it was never real..never existed...
just a false thought inside my mind!
but wait..!
how can i go on without you?
breathe..walk..or feel..
u still care for me..i thought!
but may be...
i was simply wrong...!